Here we are again. Holiday season; including too much food, too many annoying aunts and uncles at family get-togethers and too many slobbery kisses from too much alcohol consumed. Yuck. If I wanted a slobbery kiss, I can find it every day in the barn; thank you very much. It's also that time where people reflect on the past year and make those pesky New Year's resolutions. And this year, I'm no different in that aspect. Ugh. How mainstream I am becoming!
In many ways you have been a year of change. I started my own business, I moved out on my own, I have done a lot of personal development, etc. But in other ways you have also been a year full of surprises and frustration. Because I thought that once I got all these things going (especially those listed above), everything would fall into place and I could finally work on my true goal and purpose : building a successful business helping horses and owners – the thing I love most!
Instead, I tripped over things like household chores (ICK!), time management (WTF is that even?!), grocery shopping (and forgetting your bag, of course!)... Definitely NOT what I had had in mind when I moved out...
And of course, troubles arise when you have your horses at home... They like to test and break the electric fence on the pasture. Mares and a stallion do NOT belong together in the pasture if you are not trying to breed foals. Forming a new herd takes time, patience, some cuts and scrapes and a LOT of squealing. And of course, geldings can squeal louder than mares.
So I've not always been a happy camper throughout the year. I've been excited and overjoyed to finally have realised a tiny bit of the dream in my head; but at the same time, there's been frustration, feeling at loss at what to do and some tears to go with those feelings. When I look back on it now, I guess it's just another step in the journey, right? I will get better at this, RIGHT?!
Of course I will. But I am definitely ready for 2018...
Now, I'm usually not one to make New Year's resolutions, because I know I fail at them and I will have forgotten about them two weeks into next year. BUT. This year I am making some. Why am I doing this to myself, you ask? Because it will teach me a lesson in discipline because I'm putting this out there for you guys to see; and because sometimes I just need a good kick in the ass to remind me of them. So I would really appreciate your help in the reminding department!
Here we go...
1. I will put out a new post for you to read on a weekly base. That'll be tough, but I will simply have to make time and do this. I love writing, love sharing these little tidbits with you and I hope you will enjoy reading them just as much. So – one blogpost per week.
2. Step out of my comfortzone. Life starts out of your comfortzone. I can imagine a few of my friends smiling at this, because it's what I keep telling them. But I've always been very good at not following my own advice. So, it's a resolution I am making for myself. Because I really want to start doing the day, instead of letting the day do me. (I'm sorry, Stephen King, for wrenching that one completely out of context! #booknerd)
3. Be a little kinder to myself. That one may be the hardest for me, because I feel it's never enough. I always feel like I need to give more, or be there more for my friends, put my own needs on the back burner to make others happy... Yes, helping people makes me happy. I really enjoy the joy of giving (#fuckyouchristmasspirit); but sometimes I need to take some time for myself, charge my batteries and just be me. Because it's something that I need, and that I deserve.
Now that I have these down... TOTALLY ready for 2018! Are you?
Questions, thoughts and comments are appreciated as always!